So it begins...a new chapter.

Today was the first day of the Job that I didn't have my co-worker training me, her last day was on Friday, crazy!  The going away party for her was on Saturday, quite the fiesta.  And through all of it, it only made me want to stay at the Job for that many years longer.  I love it.  And the first day went really, really well.  Got a lot accomplished and definitely feel ready to take on the job solo.

This week I'm taking off on my whirlwind summer of travel for the Job.  I'll be flying back into Little Rock this Thursday and staying until Sunday.  Cannot wait to see all of my friends there!  Obviously there will be some things hard and not so easy about being there and seeing a certain someone but, for better or worse, it needs to be done.

After LR I'll be heading east for a week and a half.  I'll be in Martha's Vineyard for a bit, then heading back to LA for about a week and a half where my mom will be visiting!  Yay!  I am so excited for her to come and see my new life out here.  After LA it's back east again for a while.  At the end of July I will be flying home to Madison for my birthday, so excited!  I get to be there for 4.5 days, so great.  Then it's  back to LA where I have quite a few very close friends coming to visit from the good ol' south for a couple of weeks.  Yay visitors!  And then it's back out east again for the rest of August.  So as you can see, I'm going to be busy, to say the least haha.  Please forgive me if you don't see a ton of posts, I'll try my best!  I miss you all, lots of kisses and hugs, xoxo

Being me again.

Right now I'm celebrating an (almost) Celtic win of the NBA Playoffs, watching the basketball game at a new friends apartment.  So much fun!  I met this whole crew about 3 weeks ago and have seen every game since with them, whether at their apartment or at a great little Irish pub called Sonny McLeans.  Wonderful!  They have been a revival for me, keeping me busy, letting me laugh ridiculously loud and letting me get a little tipsy and let loose when needed.  And trust me, it has been needed recently.  No worries, no drinking problem at all and have not been drinking a lot, just a glass of wine here and there watching a great basketball game every couple of days.  It has been miraculous!  

So I guess what I am saying is that I'm feeling like myself again.  Feeling like I'm ok, I'm totally great where I am, with who I am, and with where I'm going.  I'll keep you posted on any further advances in that area.  Hope you're all wonderful, miss you all! xoxo

Change. Part two.

When something major happens in ones life, it takes time to figure out where and how to start over again.  Thought processes have to change.  Day to day activities and 'used-to's' have to be modified.  Figuring out how to recreate oneself to fit this new life...it all takes time.  

Right now I feel like after an event that took place last week that I don't want time.  I feel like when I have time I start to explode.  I need to fill up my days and hours and minutes with activities and people and anything to keep my mind busy.  If I find that I am sitting for too long, I go crazy.

Starting over.  What a weird concept.  One that, to be honest, I hadn't seriously thought of for the last year and half.  Even with this move, it may have crossed my mind, but never in a serious way.  Maybe that was naive.  Maybe that was hope.  I don't know.  Either way, I'm here, in it, knee deep.  

Being surrounded by incredibly wonderful, loving, and understanding people helps.  Even those back home and back in the city where the majority of this all took place, they are the reason that I am not going absolutely nuts.  I guess it's good to hear that, above all, I am still loved by friends.  Friends from home, friends that are friends between us, new friends here.  I don't know where I'd be without you, you guys are keeping me sane.  Thank you, for everything.  Please don't stop the emails/texts/calls, I appreciate every single one of them, more than you know.

It's been, a while.

Well first of all, I'm sorry for the lengthy hiatus.  I don't want to make excuses but work honestly had been crazy.  Crazy in a great way though!  Loving every minute of it, and making new friends (almost) every day.

A blog I posted some time ago about change reoccurred to me today.  As I was sitting here watching Sex and the City in my not-even-close-to-being-set-up apartment, getting ready to watch the actual movie (I'm just playing another round of catch up with the seasons), I realized that all of these feelings that I'm having about this huge change that I am waist deep in were completely normal.  Without shedding too much detail, there have been some ups, and definitely some downs in this last week or two with a BIG change in a BIG relationship of mine.  Funny, for those of you who know Sex and the City BIG is a phrase/name commonly used.  But for my big relationship it is with a different man, my main man.  Don't worry, things are fine.  It's figuring out how to actually maintain our relationship when it is so different from before, not just from when I was in the same city as him but also from when we did long distance before when we first started dating.  It's not the same.  Too much has been put into it, we're not heading to the same destination we were before.  

This summer, maybe even this year, I feel, will be one for changing, adjusting and reinventing.  Changing my/our minds about what we want and hoping those run parallel with each others wants, adjusting to this new city for myself and for us this new relationship we have, and reinventing our relationship too.  We can't have what we had before, not exactly.  And who knows, maybe what we can have will be even better.  We'll never know unless we try.