Monday, June 9, 2008

Change. Part two.

When something major happens in ones life, it takes time to figure out where and how to start over again.  Thought processes have to change.  Day to day activities and 'used-to's' have to be modified.  Figuring out how to recreate oneself to fit this new life...it all takes time.  

Right now I feel like after an event that took place last week that I don't want time.  I feel like when I have time I start to explode.  I need to fill up my days and hours and minutes with activities and people and anything to keep my mind busy.  If I find that I am sitting for too long, I go crazy.

Starting over.  What a weird concept.  One that, to be honest, I hadn't seriously thought of for the last year and half.  Even with this move, it may have crossed my mind, but never in a serious way.  Maybe that was naive.  Maybe that was hope.  I don't know.  Either way, I'm here, in it, knee deep.  

Being surrounded by incredibly wonderful, loving, and understanding people helps.  Even those back home and back in the city where the majority of this all took place, they are the reason that I am not going absolutely nuts.  I guess it's good to hear that, above all, I am still loved by friends.  Friends from home, friends that are friends between us, new friends here.  I don't know where I'd be without you, you guys are keeping me sane.  Thank you, for everything.  Please don't stop the emails/texts/calls, I appreciate every single one of them, more than you know.

4 comments:

jackie said...

I LOVE YOU!

Teachbug said...

so you moved to L.A. and then broke up with Rex?
color me confused.

klindsey said...

You're a sweetheart. I'm so glad things are so well for you. Please keep writing!

Kim said...

Sweet girl, just hang in there. This is a new adventure in your life. No one knows down which path it will take you. That's the adventure part of life. Embrace it. As for you and Rex...things will work out if it's meant to be. An old fashioned belief, but oh, so very true. Don't be sad. Don't be too lonely. Don't just slowly walk down this path you have chosen...run down it! Enjoy each day and each new experience. As one of my most cherished teachers once told me, "This moment will pass and never come again, enjoy it." A truer statement has never been said.
I've only had the joy of knowing you for just a little while, but I feel as if you are one of 'my kids'. I am very proud of you. You have more courage than I ever had at your age. I envy your courage to seek out the unknown.
If you need us, we are here for you. Here is my favorite Gaelic Blessing for you:

Deep Peace of the running wave to you.
Deep Peace of the flowing air to you.
Deep Peace of the quiet earth to you.
Deep Peace of the shining stars to you.
Deep Peace of the gentle night to you.
Moon and Stars pour their healing light on you.
Deep Peace to you.